I'm back after so many weeks of gone missing.

Lots of things happened while I was gone. It seemed like every single day, changes took place in our lives, be it the visible ones, big or small but nevertheless CHANGES.

I quit my job at the bank about 2 months back. It was a shockingly, drastic decision, but I always knew I had to go out of the place. Life was hard initially. No money, no jobs, no nothing...Bills needed to pay...every single things needs attention. I got frustrasted at every single thing, was so demoralized most times. I just feel like hell, simply put!

In the midst of it, I was busy looking for a job. It came across my mind to throw everything out of my mind and just go with my heart desire...which was at that time was to sit at home and sleeeeeeeepppppp and not think! But the irony of it was, it cannot help solve my problems.

So I sent out resumes, interviews here and there, but was never shortlisted! This time round it wasn't frustration what I felt, it was DESPERATION! The more resumes I sent out, and never got shortlisted, the more dejected I felt. At one point, I just felt so useless. I mean, lets face it, I can't even land a decent job?

I worked temporarily at a local pharmacy outlet. The job sucks, the pay sucks, the people sucks! I can't talk and mingle with co-workers, I had to pay the shortage of cash after I finished doing my cashering, no fixed lunch or dinner time, worked extra 3 hours without getting paid almost every day for the sake of replenishing the stocks at the place! Then the people I worked with...they commented to me, "You live in your own world!" and most times, I didn't feel the mood to talk, so I kept quiet most time and got asked, rather rudely, "Can you talk or not?" from the boss...*sigh*. Life was simply p.a.t.h.e.t.i.c.

But deep down I knew I cannot give up! So I tried every single job ads I could get my hands on and...well as some of you know, I didn't expect to get this new job at all. But I AM GLAD! And thankful to God for every single blessings He'd given me.

The last 2 months have taught me so many things about life, and when I sit back and think now, I'm glad these things happened because if it didn't happen, I wouldn't know how strong I can be and how far I can go just to keep alive!

I'd been feeling like crap lately. I had been such a bitch, and sometimes it just scared the hell out of me that I become such a bitch! Because I am not so bad, just that stress was finally taking its toll on me...Thank God, I have a punching bag...so he was the one who got hammered by me everyday. What will I do without him! I have other friends whom call and talk and JMF and blogs to read...so that take off my mind of 'certain' things.

Anyway, I just read my email from one of my very nice ex-colleague. He's a very charming guy, single LOL...since I left like a 'flash' from that darn place, I couldn't say my bye-bye to anyone. So I sent out my emails to some of them, including 'O'. He replied after 2 weeks and what he said makes me feel better. I quote "Don't mind you be my boss. You are funny and bright!" :-)

So after feeling so demoralized for the last 2 weeks or so, I somehow realized that hey, I am funny and I'm also bright, so what's keeping me away from being so happy and cheerful? The stress was keeping me unhappy...and I want to try to put a smile on my face everyday from today onwards. It's just that I feel like I haven't laughed so freely the last couple of days.

I know there was someone who said I should smile and be happy. After all, the whole debacle was done and over with...but heck, he got slammed for being nice! :(

And the other day, my ex colleague called and said that the darn boss actually asked her about me...Such hypocrite!!!

Folks,

This blog will be OUT for the time being, since I am currently "OUT" in everything!

I'll come back to update it once 'something' happen.

Wish you all the best and I know I am going to miss you all [you know who you are ;) ]

Folks,

This blog will be OUT for the time being, since I am currently "OUT" in everything!

I'll come back to update it once 'something' happen.

Wish you all the best and I know I am going to miss you all [you know who you are ;) ]

Folks,

This blog will be OUT for the time being, since I am currently "OUT" in everything!

I'll come back to update it once 'something' happen.

Wish you all the best and I know I am going to miss you all [you know who you are ;) ]

Folks,

This blog will be OUT for the time being, since I am currently "OUT" in everything!

I'll come back to update it once 'something' happen.

Wish you all the best and I know I am going to miss you all [you know who you are ;) ]

Hello my devoted readers ;), I know I haven't been back in weeks to update my blog. I don't have to tell you my reason on why I had been MIA from here and everywhere else. You know why I haven't been around.

Anyway, I rented out 3 books and one of it is Marliss Melton's Time To Run. It is one of the series for her Navy SEAL team. For those of you who know me well enough, you know I am crazy about Navy SEAL! I am half-way through reading it and e.n.j.o.y it well enough. :)

...SEAL...

Here's the excerpt.

Time to Run
February 2006
ONE CHANCE
Sara Garret thought the military lawyer she married would be the perfect husband and father. But he has become her worst nightmare. Now one vicious act has driven Sara to take her ten-year-old son and flee. Yet the only thing more frightening than running away...is trusting a stranger to help her.
ONE SHOT
Chase McCaffrey is a damn good sniper, and an even better SEAL—but he’s no knight in shining armor. His impulse to help Sara is as puzzling as the subtle way she steals into his heart, resurrecting emotions he thought he didn't have. Concealing mother and son at his remote, Oklahoma ranch, Chase dares to hope the past will never find them. Yet there are sinister forces afoot, threatening to expose them. And a calculating husband tracks them down, if only to prove that Sara is his, forever--even in death.
TIME TO RUN Danger is right behind you.

--Courtesy of Marliss Melton books.
http://www.marlissmelton.com

So I hope to be back soon enough. Take care people. I miss you all!!!

*Kisses*

I am at this new office! This place out of no-where! *sigh* but at least there are some consolation. I am not longer sitting with the boss, I am surrounded with 3 Filippino guys LOL. My workstation is just in front of the door--which I like because at least I can see who is coming in and out of the door!

And what do you know, one of my colleague came over to my place and take a look. Then he asked me whether I want to join him to buy a 4D (lottery) LOL with my new cubicle no. 13! LOL.I say, 'why not!'...LOL. It's just for fun! So we settled with 1013 for the bet! LOL.

You can tell I need $$$ people!!! LOL.

I hate changes, but I am hoping this change would be better for me.

What does this mean?

Dahil, sayo gusto kong mabu hai.

And please, please, please tell me the true meaning! Don't lie to me, okay! LOL

I got this from Sam and I don't trust him one tiny bit!!!

(and he is getting angry at me for not trusting him! *roll eyes*)

I had been such a B*t*h lately! Well, blame it on the PMS! I had been feeling so tired, so relentless, and had this supressed anger inside me!!! *clenching jaw*

I wish I can just SCREAM, CURSE, BEAT SOMEONE or SOMETHING! But I know it won't help a bit, so I will take the next course--which is keep quiet, take a deep breath and calm myself down.

Please don't ask me why I am feeling like this. It's just those times when I have to 'change'. I am having an inner-battle with myself! Don't worry, I will be fine.

***okay***

So back to the purpose of writing this blog. While soul-searching, I came across this quote which I find truly inspiring, and beautiful.

Watch your thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your habits, they become character.
Watch your character, they become destiny.
*source:http://www.talkislam.com/iquotes/*

For my muslims friends, if you need a lift, go to the webpage. It's inspiring! And of course for the rest, you are welcome to read some of the quotes there too.

This friend of mine, Rashidah, whom I love so much. I was B*t*hing to her about something, and she replied me with this one.

Every experience a person goes through changes a person somewhat so we have to learn to move on with our lives.
We can reminisce the past but we mustn't keep looking back else we may miss out on future opportunities.
Be confident that you're good for something but strive to perfect yourself for something better.
Growth is continuous but life is not forever so we should grow ourselves through life and into the ever after.
Being thankful for everything (good or bad) is a duty.

I couldn't agree with her less! :) Hope you will enjoy the quotes.

As for me, I need a good sleep tonight to get rid of every single (-)tive atom in my body!!!! *sighing*